smiles

I spent the weekend counting your smiles and listening to your dreams for us. I have concluded love as the supreme authority on life and have therefore joined in its cause. Love makes things right. I have spoken this to memorization, a mantra to warm your heart.

We are a day closer to US.

Others

I'm terrified. To call this an affair would demean our love, add a negative connotation to something that is so beautiful, pure, and real. In time people will want to categorize us. Put us in boxes. Me: the unfaithful wife. You: the other man. They will fail to see the dimensions of our love. I can't and will not fault them. The only person I fault is myself. I shouldn't have given up so easily those years back. I should have fought harder for our love. I was a coward. I'm sorry.

WE

He is the embodiment of my dreams manifested in spirit and flesh.

Blinded by my own perceptions and expectations, I was unaware of the seriousness of our love. I thought that time and space would allow for the slow dissipation of our memories and eventually lead me to forget about him. I forgot that time and space holds no relevance in the realm of love. Now here I am, lost in my own thinking. Thinking I had lost him.

I thought I lost you. My decisions were spawned from a place where your interest was a priority. Though you may fail to see this point, it is the truth. My intentions were not to complicate your life, but now I have complicated love. But the stars are realigning. And WE are.

In the beginning

My intentions for this blog is to convey, with honesty, my love. I do not wish to promote or condemn my actions. I am not looking for sympathy or acceptance. I am trying to journal these thoughts, these feelings, these moments, before they are forgotten. I have learned the toll of not following my heart. At present, I am trying to amend that wrong.